Not rejected yet

So far I haven't heard anything from the job in New York that I applied to.  But that's a good thing right?  It has only been two weeks since I sent my stuff in.  With a huge company it must take a long time.  That's what I keep telling myself.  Dealing with my job for the past two weeks though since sending it in has felt like an eternity.  I am just so ready to be out of there.

Best climb ever

Last night I had the best climb that I have ever had at the gym.  It was awesome.  The overhang is no longer an obstacle and now I am working on getting over the next ledge, climbing routes, climbing new ropes, challenging myself.  It's the only thing keeping me going under my present circumstances.  It's the only relief I get from the stress and pressure of my job.

Anyway, this weekend, later today after I go to an art fair, it is job search and resume time.  Keep your fingers crossed for me.

Moving on, but not the way I thought I would be

I've had all kinds of moving on the brain.  Moving to Michigan primarily.  It seems that although I believed that they were going to support me and let me do it, they may possibly not, and nevertheless, they are going to drag their feet until January just because they can.  They have decided to send me to a client 3 days a week for 3 months which I decidedly do not want to do (but can't get out of) and this just gives them more time to pretend they are thinking about it.  Well something happened last week, that I don't really feel like going in to, which has led me to believe that the partner, while saying he will do anything to make the move happen, is actually full of shit.  I no longer trust him, respect him or want to work for him.  I have seen a different side of him.  What once seemed to be the perfect job has gone sour, rather suddenly.

It has been on my mind for a long time what my longevity at the firm would be.  Where my career was going.  What I wanted.  I just didn't have a clear picture.  Well, I have made up my mind, definitively.  What I once thought was the job I always wanted, isn't that job anymore.  What I once thought was the job that I would stay at forever, isn't anymore.  Things change.  I have decided to leave the firm. How and when I don't know but I will be leaving for sure.  I no longer want to make partner and I am at that stage in my career path where I either go for it or I leave.  It's up or out at this point.  So I am choosing out.  I am choosing to leave.  I knew I would face this decision eventually I just didn't know it would be now or that I would sort of be forced into it.

It means I need to find a job at a company (there is no point in switching to another firm).  The job I applied for in NY I am actually rather qualified for.  It would be a huge step up in my career.  It is for one of the major networks.  Keep your fingers crossed that they don't flat out reject me.  I hope they at least consider me.  Actually, what I am hoping for, is a miracle.

Maybe it's moving on time, maybe

I'm applying for a job in New York.

Trying something new

I am going to try to not unplug this coffee pot when I leave for work tomorrow.