So, I'm at an AA women's retreat - the theme of the retreat is accepting ourselves. Carrie and Jen have done a great job of putting this together. I spoke this morning at the morning meeting - gave a lead on acceptance. It's funny because I always think I have nothing to say - but the comments people shared when I was done were amazing. Someone told me it was the most beautiful lead they have ever heard. I never know what to say to that - so I just say thank you. It feels good to hear people say that I have helped them - that is after all the point. It is good preparation for speaking next weekend - with that only a week away, I am more than a little bit nervous. So many people here have asked me if they can have a copy of the CD of it. I feel so unprepared.
Coming into this weekend, I didn't really want to go. In fact, we discovered, that most of us, if not all of us, didn't want to go - but here we are and we have all expressed a tremendous amount of gratitude for the fact that we are here. I feel at ease, spiritually connected, it's giving me time to reflect on what it used to be like. The only thing I wish is that I could shut off the computer, turn off the blackberry, turn off the cell phone - and really disconnect myself. It's 12:45 and I've checked my email 5 times today. I'm not expecting anything, I just don't want to miss anything. Someday, I hope to learn to disconnect completely.
Anyway - more later...this afternoon we have another meeting, another meditation, we are making journey boxes...more will be revealed.
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