No matter how many days I have gotten off work in the past month, I can't seem to get motivated. I had more than a few days off in the month of December right up through New Years and it just doesn't seem to be enough. Usually after time off I feel like I have renewed energy and I feel ready to get back into things again. Not so this year.
And then came the dreaded raise. It was a great raise, but I always dread raise time because rather than enjoying it and feeling like I deserve it, I find a way to feel guilty and bad about it. Do I have to work harder now that I got it, or is this like a reward for past behavior? I haven't figured it out.
But anyway, about the time off. I'm kind of doing a bad thing. I am supposed to go to Michigan tomorrow to attend a memorial for a family member who passed away in the fall. It looks like the weather isn't going to cooperate with the drive which means I might not make it. It also means I am off tomorrow. My colleague is having to do a presentation for a client that I would have had to do were it not for this day off. And rather than changing the plans last minute and going to the client with her, or instead of going into the office and actually working which I should do, I am going to get a pedicure.
I know, I'm a terrible person.
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