Pulling the trigger

I have made some major life decisions.  It makes me nervous but it is time for a change.  I have been living the same life for 5 years now and I am ready to move on.  I have been unhappy in my job and unhappy in Chicago.  My efforts to move back home have been, let's say, blocked by an asshole in management.  It seems rather unlikely at this point that the two partners I work for are going to be able to change their mind.  It's actually not just a matter of them not being able to, it is a matter of them being unwilling, for one reason or another, to try.  Because they could force the issue if they wanted to.  If they knew I had one foot out the door, perhaps they would.  If they had a clue that I will leave over it, they might view it differently.  But instead they blame it on a tax issue.  That's actually management's reason.  It causes a tax issue.

Well fuck them.

So I applied for that job in New York and they are taking their time to contact me.  I still feel pretty confident though that are going to.  But in the mean time, I have decided that I want to move to New York anyway.  I have a really close friend there and it is closer to my brother and his family in Vermont. I just don't want to stay here in Chicago.  I don't have any friends here.  I don't have any family here.  I don't have anything keeping me here.  I am ready to go.

But the question is, how do I get out of here.  It's not easy for me to find a job in my practice area at a company (other than this really awesome job that I applied for), and I wouldn't leave my firm for another firm because that doesn't make sense.  I don't know why I didn't think of this sooner.  We have an office in New York.

When I told the partner I needed to talk to him and asked him to shut my door, I could see mild panic spread across his face.  He probably thought I was going to quit, and well, he should really be prepared for that.  Unfortunately, I am the one doing most of the work for the group, so although I don't want to sound overly important, when I do leave, they are really going to be in trouble.  They  might have thought of that sooner.  Before they pissed me off enough to leave.  It's a combo of factors that make me unhappy at my job, not worth going into.

But anyway, I pulled the trigger.  I decided to move forward and not look back.  I requested a transfer.