I know I know

I didn't post every day for a week. I also didn't spell check the last post nor did I notice the typo in the title. Oh well. Anyway, I am going to really make an effort to post more. I used to use this blog as a way to sort of dump out the contents of my head, but like I said, these days, I am censoring myself out of fear for some reason. Fear of what people will think of me. All you people that I don't even know, well, most of you I don' t know and I don't have a clue who you are cause you all lurk.

Anyway, I am bored out of my mind, so that's why I'm here. Work is painfully slow and I am counting down the minutes until I can go home. There are a lot left by the way.

I am sponsorless again, as of the other night. I'm really pissed about the situation, not about being sponsorless, but about what happened. Basically what happened was I last talked to my sponsor before Christmas. I called her and called her and she didn't call back. So I kept calling, leaving my usual messages and she didn't call back. So I figured she was busy. So I kept calling, leaving my checking in messages and she kept not calling back. Then I started to think something was wrong. This is really not acceptable. This is just my opinion, but if you are sponsoring someone, you really are obligated in a way to call the person back. Granted I've been sober long enough that I don't need a call back immediately or anything, but come on, after a month, you really ought to call your sponsee back.

Well she called the other night, after I had been calling her for like 4 weeks leaving "just checking in" messages. And she said she was just busy. That wasn't really acceptable to me. We decided to part ways because well, the sponsor/sponsee relationship doesn't work when your sponsor doesn't call you back. Besides, she is moving anyway at some point down the road.

But this really left me pissed off and it's festering and I am harboring a resentment about it. She was basically rude when she called and completely dismissive.

All I can say is sometimes you think you know someone...and then it turns out you didn't really know them at all.