I'm trying a new drug. Well not new, but new to me. I've never tried this one before. This past year and a half has been one long experiment in trying to make me less miserable - trying drugs, trying doses, trying combinations, other combinations, times of day etc. I think we might have found the magic pill. But I am not going to stop taking the other meds that I'm on, because maybe it is only magical in combination.
Anyway, not only do I have no anxiety all day, and feel almost no stress, I am not feeling OCD either. This drug was definitely not for OCD. All along I have felt like taking meds has helped the OCD and then I get stressed out and it creeps back in. This drug seems to have virtually eliminated it. This morning I didn't have to stand in front of my stove for like minutes proving to myself that it was actually off - because duh, I haven't used it in weeks, of course it is off. I know, a minor accomplishment right, but it's huge really. I didn't have to eat dinner with a particular fork in order to have work tomorrow not be terrible, or worry about which outlet my computer is plugged in to. I know, I am giving away all of my weird behaviors.
This is definitely an unintended benefit but I'll take it. And I hope it lasts. I'm feeling noticeably better on this drug. It makes me nervous to take it because some versions of it are addictive, but my doctor is not worried about the one she put me on. For now, I am going to just roll with it and see how it goes.
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