Friday, December 11, 2009

175 miles to go...

It is 175 miles from the border of Indiana and Michigan to Ann Arbor.

Every time, every single time I come here, I set out with the idea that it's like the best idea ever.  Like I can't wait because it's been 6 months since I've been "home."  And every time I get here I want to turn right back around and drive back to Chicago.  I just can't wait to get home... and what... be filled with nearly uncontrollable anxiety.

What crazy part of me thinks that moving back here is actually a good idea.  I have this good friend and she is supposed to remind me every time I mention Michigan that I feel like shit every time I come here.  And every time she reminds me and every time I think it is going to be different.

And then it is just the same.  Every time.

1 comment:

Jodie said...

What happened? I didn't have any idea tonight that you were feeling like this! I wish you would have talked to me. Call if you need anything.