Looking up

I've had two bad weeks - but things are finally looking better. This past week I was extremely sick. The week before I was in Michigan and extremely stressed out and busy at work.

This past week I went to work sick three days in a row with a fever, etc., and then finally, on Thursday decided to stay home. I went to the doctor and she thought I had a bacterial infection that could cause pneumonia, so she gave me an anti-biotic which I started last night. And poof - I actually feel better today. I mean, not all the way better - but noticeably.

I went to work today when I probably should have stayed home - I could have had a 5 days weekend!! But there was a conversation that I needed to have. I left early, at 3. I left early almost every day this week that I went in.

I even felt better enough to clean up the disaster that was my kitchen - it was really disgusting after being sick since Sunday and not rinsing a single dish or putting anything in the dishwasher. I had to restrain myself from an all out assault type cleaning of my condo. I feel good, but not that good.

Anyway, I went to a meeting tonight - much needed. I hadn't been to a meeting for a week because of being out of town and then sick. I don't normally do that (go that long without going to a meeting) and I have to say, I'm actually surprised that I didn't feel more screwed up in the head. Seriously, normally after a week, I could have gone crazy in my head.

Maybe my freaking out over the "leave situation" at work is some evidence of the fact that I hadn't gone to a meeting. Though again I have to say, I handled that much better than I would have ever in years past. I mean really, I did maybe go off a bit in that post, but I needed to vent and I did manage to maintain some perspective about it.

I did have a good talk with the head of my group - about the leave, about the future, about all kinds of things. And although the details aren't pinned down and may not be for a while and maybe I will go August 1st or maybe I will go August 15th - in any case, it sounds like it is going to work and every one is okay and supportive.

Things are really good at work actually. In fact, things have slowed down a bit, which is fine by me cause up until this week I've been pretty much super super busy since February and drowning. And instead of getting worried like I normally do when things slow down - worrying about hours, etc., I am stress free this time. Because remember, this is the new me this billable year. I just don't give a shit how many hours I bill. And let me tell you, it feels great not to be stressed about it.