Like I was saying yesterday, I never get an immediate feeling of relief. I am definitely a delayed reactor when it comes to stress. It takes me a little while to come down from the stress. Finally this morning, after sleeping in a bit, laying around, watching Project Runway, finally I felt relaxed. Perfect or not, the project is over. I know it's not really over, there will be follow-up questions and implementation, but the hardest part for me is over. And I know that next week, Monday and Tuesday are going to be busy, but I don't feel stressed about it right now. They are little projects, like I have one day to do them, and a few loose ends need to be tied up on other things. So it will be busy, hopefully not crazy. Hopefully I will be able to climb on Tuesday. That's the only part that is making me nervous of course because I really want to climb and I don't want to get stuck there due to the fact that I can't get the partner to answer my questions. All I care about these days really is making sure I can fit climbing in.
These past weeks since the beginning of January, I feel like I have been operating on autopilot. Just going going going along trying to cram in hours, working every Saturday etc., trying to get this project done while at the same time trying to keep up with everything else. I definitely feel relieved and relaxed and like maybe things are going to stay slower for a bit. I could be wrong about that. But I can't imagine anything making me feel as stressed as I have the past several weeks. It's just not sustainable to work these hours and to keep up this pace. I am kind of hoping I won't have to even though I won't hit 2000 hours. I didn't even care in the first place it's just that I very much got forced into trying to hit it. But I personally don't care if I don't.
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