The great motivator

I am having a really hard time getting motivated because I am so angry.  I would have expected the opposite.  Anger is a great motivator for some people.  I simply can't get over being angry about what the so called nice people I worked with did to me.  I don't think I will ever get over it.  The weird thing is, I am exactly the type of person to be motivated by anger.  Piss me off, watch out.  Tell me I can't have something - fuck you I'll go get it.  But this - I just can't get myself to care.  And this is a big deal.  I NEED TO CARE.  All I can think about is the spa.  It's like life doesn't exist after the spa, after May 29th - our last day there.  I have got to get my butt in gear.  I should be networking (or according to this recruiter woman who is supposed to be helping me) instead of pouring over spa services, and personal challenges and planning this trip.  I mean yeah I want the trip to be great.  But I sure would like a job to return to.  Again, all I can think about is the awesomeness of this trip.  What am I going to do.