Internet withdrawal

I think I am suffering from Internet withdrawal.  My dad doesn't have Internet at home.  Yeah my phone is saving me but it isn't quite the same.  I came to a coffee shop this morning to kill time while I wait to go to lunch with my mother because I just couldn't bear to sit there for another hour and fifteen minutes watching the Fox news network.  That is like my least favorite news channel.  Yeah I have a tv in the bedroom I am staying in, but frankly I am bored of tv.  That's all I have to do every night is watch tv.  I am not sure how this trip ended up so different than all the other ones.  Usually I have so much to do that I am running around like a crazy person trying to cram it all in.  I suspect it is because I am not working and therefore have extra time on my hands whereas before I was always in a panic when in town.  Now I just have time to kill and not enough to fill it with.  Sure I am job searching while I am here and but that has me more concerned than anything.  I am not finding anything and you can only job search and find nothing for so many hours of the day.  There is a possible job through HBO that I am praying turns into something.  I'm waiting to hear back from a headhunter about that.  Right now I basically just feel screwed in the job department and extremely angry that the asshole I worked for lied to me and stabbed me in the back.  I am really fucking angry still.

I am working with another recruiter who is helping me tweak my resume and figure out how to job search and target certain companies that may not have postings.  Unfortunately for me my area of law is highly specialized, and her process of job searching takes considerable time.  If I think about it too much I just get upset.  There is so much going on for me to be stressed about.  Job searching, needing a job in order to move in July, getting married, figuring out immigration issues, planning a real wedding for next year.   I'm a bit overwhelmed really.  And it all feels a bit surreal.  It was like I left for London and life was one way and I came back and it was totally upended.  In a good way, but still, upended.

Anyway, I am just rambling at this point.  Off to see my mother and tell her the happy news that I am getting married!  I will report back on what inappropriate thing she says.  More later....