It didn't happen that way

I was slightly worried when I went to bed last night that I would wake up over the moon.  So I thought fuck it.  If it happens, I will ride the wave of happiness and motivation for a day and hope for the best on the other end.  It didn't happen.  I woke up the same as always.  Or, well, the same as always lately.  Worried about finding a job, semi-hopeless, stressed about money and with the same degree of motivation (which would be a lack of).  I am in a bit of a funk motivation wise, but that I am nearly certain is circumstantial not chemical.  So all is good here I guess.  I mean I can't pretend nothing is going to happen because obviously there are major chemical changes going on in my system.  But, so far so good I think.