Sunday, June 06, 2010

Pre-relief, or not

Yesterday I was writing a post about how I was feeling totally relieved, laid back, totally chilled out, no anxiety, no worry about work, now worry about my vacation.  Well that didn't last.  I mean it was great while it lasted.  I thought, this must be how normal people feel on a average day.  It's really unusual for me to feel relief in advance.  Usually it takes a couple of days before I feel relieved and decompress.  Sometimes the relieved feeling never comes.  It was awesome, it was like pre-relief.

Anyway, I guess I am more anxious about this trip than I am about work tomorrow.  I mean, I have X number of things to do tomorrow and approximately 8 hours to do it in.  I did work a bit this weekend to try to get a few mindless things done so tomorrow wouldn't be quite as bad.  But I am having a hard time motivating myself today to do any work.  I did do most of my packing so that's good.  Really I just feel restless.  I feel like organizing things and throwing things away.  I am having a hard time just sitting here.

So I leave in two days - early Tuesday morning.  The whole trip is planned.  I am going rock climbing on Wednesday, the day after I get there.  Everything is all set.  Why the hell am I anxious about going to a spa?  I'll never understand that.  I think it's just that traveling stresses me out until I get to my destination.

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