Saturday, June 26, 2010

Without 100% certainty

I've decided that I can't know the answer as to whether or not I should move with 100% certainty.  It is simply not possible to know things in life like that.  Rarely is there a perfect time for anything and things are never predictable.  You never know what is going to happen or how something is going to work out.  But almost never is it exactly the way you planned.  I've mentioned before that I have this piece of paper taped on my shelf at work just exactly where I see if I look up from my computer and it says "it will not happen that way."  That pretty much applies to everything.  I try to remind myself of that so that I keep myself from making up all the stories that I make up in my head about how it is going to turn out.  Whatever I am anticipating, it will not happen that way.  Not exactly.

I can't know if it is exactly the right answer, but I do know that it feels more right than wrong.  It feels more right to go back there than it does to stay here.  And one thing I do know is that if I do go back and it isn't perfect and it isn't everything that expect it to be and that I hope it will be, I will not be disappointed.  I will not feel like I made the wrong choice.  Whatever it turns out to be, I feel it is the right choice.  That doesn't mean I know it with 100% certainty though.  There is always an element of doubt.

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