Speaking at the meeting went fine - it went great actually. I worry for nothing. Every time I say I won't worry the next time, and then I worry. And then afterwards - I always think damn - there were things I meant to say that I left out - really important things about life and sobriety and the moment and what a gift it is to get to live differently. Did I say enough about faith - I don't know. Cause really - it's hard to cram it all in to 20-30 minutes - I honestly think it would take like 2 hours to tell the whole story. But it was what it was, I said what I was supposed to say - and once I got my name out, that feeling of calm came over me again. That is the grace of my higher power.
The most amazing thing - is what the other people say - it's such a great feeling when someone shares how much your story impacts them or comes up to you afterwards to thank you and tells you that you helped them or inspired them. It's a good feeling. I wish I could help more people. And I don't think my story is that amazing or anything, or that I am oh so cool or anything - but someone said something really nice to me afterwards when he came up to thank me. He told me that he has heard hundreds and hundreds of leads at meetings - and that what I shared tonight is in the top 5 leads he has ever heard. How nice was that?
I believe wholeheartedly in AA. I have complete faith that it can change you life if you want it. Miracles are possible. I know, because my life is one and it is in fact possible to stay sober through anything, no matter how devastating. I just feel overwhelmed with gratitude - I always do when I speak at a meeting. It reminds me how damn lucky I am to be sitting here.
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Glad it went well. :)
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